I am happy to report that I went 24 hours without taking Tylenol! My temp stayed fairly normal for most of the day yesterday then climbed last night to 100.2, but went back down to 99.7. I ended up taking Tylenol just so that I could sleep without worrying that my temperature would get out of control. I still have some symptoms, but the fever does seem to be going away. Thank you God! Hopefully, it stays normal tonight and we can start putting this behind us. (It ended up rising a bit again, but not much yet!)
Being separated from my family for two weeks was extremely hard. I would go outside to get fresh air and say hi to my children, but I stayed apart from my kids. I didn’t go downstairs to play or spend time with them for fear of exposing them to COVID (Thankfully, I don’t have that. I tested negative, plus spoke with an infectious disease doctor).
I am scheduled for an echocardiogram on Monday to make sure the AC treatment didn’t damage my heart. This is a routine procedure they do to patients who have received AC. Tuesday I will be returning to chemotherapy. Ten more weeks of this bad boy and on to the next step. It is not an enjoyable experience, but it is necessary…I pray I don’t have anymore setbacks and I can return to complete health and stay there!
My friends, church, and family have sent cards, prayers, gifts, and so much love. My family has spoiled me with many days in bed, special meals made like my favorites from restaurants, and plenty of love and hope. Saying thank you will never be enough, but I hope you know how much I value you, your friendship, your concern, your prayers, and the love and hope you give me to keep going. You are all incredible.
This Mother’s Day I am thankful to be back giving my children and husband hugs. I am thankful to have a team looking out for me. I told my sister when she was diagnosed a few years ago you are allowed to be angry, to be fearful, to have your feelings…I love that I have had friends that have basically said the same thing to me. God doesn’t expect us to live without fear or anger or disappointment. It’s okay to have bad days, we’re human. Thank goodness we have a God who understands.
“I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.” –Psalm 34:4
I do struggle with anxiety during this time in my life…but I have a lot of help from family, friends, and God. This week Courtney, one of my best friends for life, shared a song that sums up the last few weeks perfectly. It’s by JJ Heller and it’s called “You Already Know.” Thank you Courtney. It’s true. God already knows.