“Tired” is my daily existence lately, but last night I gave my constantly-teething peanut some Tylenol and for the first time in a long while we got some sleep. Phew! If you haven’t heard from me it is because exhaustion has set in. Just because I am tired doesn’t mean things are terrible. My oncologist tells me that I am doing well. Still, I feel like I am in a bit of a survival mode at times.
Health wise the mass can no longer be felt! I am having some lower abdominal/pelvic and lower back pain… I am hoping that it is either from pulling muscles doing yoga or carrying a 20ish pound (or more?) child around. My goals of taking better care of myself with excercise and sleep are a struggle, but we’ll get there.
I cried at chemo this past week. Waiting for the phlebotomist, then waiting for the doctor’s appointment, then waiting for the chemo treatment made me anxious. After a challenging week, the tears were released. Everything takes so long. This chemo takes only an hour to an hour and a half to administer, but the whole process often takes 5 hours.
I found out recently my tentative surgery date for the double mastectomy (It will be one surgery of a few.) is August 11th. I have four chemo’s left and then about 3.5 weeks off before more crazy begins. We are almost there!
A couple of weeks ago this earth lost an incredible lady. One of my best friends, and my “second family” growing up, lost a beautiful mom. Carla, I will miss you and your wisdom, love, and encouragement. You left your mark.
With sad news also came the great news that another friend’s scans came back clear after a battle with cancer. Sending love and light to all of you!
During all of this, my daughter has become a bit of a hat fashionista. When this is all over, I know a girl who will be wearing some of mommy’s old hats. I think she is rather cute.
Here’s my lovely girl… and mommy’s hats:
